Feeling pretty bad

Im feeling down. I knew no point crying. But I cant help it.

Yeap. I hit jackpot. I've got gestational diabetes. I failed the glucose test.

I'm feeling unsure if my baby going to be alright.
Thou doc said it mild. I failed by 0.1~

How can I not worried? How can I not feeling scare?
Its definitely not what I want.

For sure my hubby, my mum, my parents-in-law going to blame me on it.
I dont feel like going home. Coz I don't want all the nagging from them.

I cant hold back my tears. Crying non-stop doesnt help anything better.

I'm always looking forward to the day he come to this world....
Now, Im scare the day come....
I cant imagine he might have to undergo some extra test just becoz his mummy has G.D.

My mood will highly affect him for now, for today~