Quiet down....

Im back to my workforce. Everyday I'm being asked, "Why are you so quiet today?"
If not I heard, "I don't even know Rachel is around coz she's too quiet."

I'm always so quiet, don't I?

Yes. I'm selective. I can be very talkative, humorous n even crazy. I behaved that way in front of my family, my close friends like Jacmama, Joyce n Animalfamilyz. I just can't be what I am infront of my colleagues.

Why am I thinking so much n making myself so miserable?
Beside being selective, I'm so sensitive. I believe in my guts feeling.
Things have change after I gone back to work. I no longer feel close to who I always be with. I felt distant when I'm with them.

Problems lies with me? I'm not able to speak up or I don't want to speak up?
I also hope I can "click" with them. Ok, in fact I cant help myself from over-thinking. I heard much on how they comment on other. So lead to I don't want to speak up, I have process everything thru my big mind 1st before I talk or I act.

I do afraid ppl gossip behind my back. I can't simply ignore how ppl think abt me. That's me!

Are colleagues impt? To some of you, maybe No! For me, definitely Yes! Impt!
For a good 8hrs each day, a total of 5 days you have to spend your time with them. Even lunchtime there's someone to acc you for lunch. Colleagues help you to pass faster each day, each hr, every minutes & every single second.....

Thats provided they likes you and give u a easy time. Rite? Of coz, my colleagues din't me a hard time at all. After all, my role with time is always a listener. I listen to their joke, watching their playfulness. Its still fun to hang around with them.

Sigh. Pray I can survive another week before weekends come.