Dream

Im upset over what I dreamt. It seems so real....
Its been a long long time since he last appeared in my dream.
Did he come to see his grandson?.............

T.G.I.F

My sis with straight silky hair (haha) ~ (now she is in perm-ed hair)

So Cheezy

Jack Daniel Chicken Breast: It taste quite sweet

We both went town to get mooncake~ Its my 1st time dining @ T.G.I.F.
Last time can go shopping tgt with my sis...now very hard to squeeze out time to do that as both of us have kiddo~

Could things turn better?

Back to work for 3 weeks. Start picking up things....so far can cope ok.
Hope things will con'd to be smooth....

As usual, colleagues still saying I'm too quiet. *haha*

Daily lifestyle has been tough. I'm super tired. Have nite feeding to do~
SO sleepy...Dragging myself to work everyday!

But is still fun to have a baby....a child of ur own. You will look forward to each day he/she picking up new things.... *smile*

Quiet down....

Im back to my workforce. Everyday I'm being asked, "Why are you so quiet today?"
If not I heard, "I don't even know Rachel is around coz she's too quiet."

I'm always so quiet, don't I?

Yes. I'm selective. I can be very talkative, humorous n even crazy. I behaved that way in front of my family, my close friends like Jacmama, Joyce n Animalfamilyz. I just can't be what I am infront of my colleagues.

Why am I thinking so much n making myself so miserable?
Beside being selective, I'm so sensitive. I believe in my guts feeling.
Things have change after I gone back to work. I no longer feel close to who I always be with. I felt distant when I'm with them.

Problems lies with me? I'm not able to speak up or I don't want to speak up?
I also hope I can "click" with them. Ok, in fact I cant help myself from over-thinking. I heard much on how they comment on other. So lead to I don't want to speak up, I have process everything thru my big mind 1st before I talk or I act.

I do afraid ppl gossip behind my back. I can't simply ignore how ppl think abt me. That's me!

Are colleagues impt? To some of you, maybe No! For me, definitely Yes! Impt!
For a good 8hrs each day, a total of 5 days you have to spend your time with them. Even lunchtime there's someone to acc you for lunch. Colleagues help you to pass faster each day, each hr, every minutes & every single second.....

Thats provided they likes you and give u a easy time. Rite? Of coz, my colleagues din't me a hard time at all. After all, my role with time is always a listener. I listen to their joke, watching their playfulness. Its still fun to hang around with them.

Sigh. Pray I can survive another week before weekends come.

Changes...

Have the urge to change of environment. What kind of environment am I refering to? Work? Home? or some others?

Maybe ALL!

As for home, still have to wait till next year.....
AS for work, I just ended my maternity leave. Issit becoz I have to re-adapt to my jobscope + envrionment, I dont feel quite comfortable. Maybe should give myself some time to adapt to it.
As for lifestyle, now have addn member, my Baby Skyler, so after work is to go home. No time for frens or other activities eg. shopping, ktv, movies!!

So looking forward to weekends...*sigh*

妈妈不好当

It's not ez to be a mother. I'm not trying to complain here.
I know it jus past two months for being a mummy of one.
Not jus toking abt joyous stuffs. I still have lots to learn, to face sadness, anger n more worries.

I thot I'm ready to be a mum. But I'm actually not.
Physically n mentally not well prepare.
Hmmm...还有很长的路要走，还有很多等着我去经历...

好想喊累啊!!!

Money, 金钱

钱，重不重要？
it's important to have cash!
But Money 生不带来死不带去。
它会让亲情、友情、爱情起了变化。
没钱似乎万万不能

钱少的话就过贫穷及简单生活
钱多的话就过富裕及奢华生活

我希望我是。。。我能。。。