Doing well

Yes, Im maintaining my weight. Hope it doesnt increase till 1st June.
Im starting to eat salad. VEGETABLES! Everyone who noes me know that I dont eat veg at all. Except brocolli. kekekz. Maybe cabbage in soup. Sambal with kangkong...Thats all.

Im looking forward to my b-day. This fri meeting Jacmama. Sunday will be with family celebrating my bday.

Im so craving for ice-cream n cakes. But I cant have much of those. Maybe a small slice of cakey. A few mouth of ice-cream. Thats all. *sadded*

3rd day

Its the 3rd day I followed Dietitian's diet.
Have to do self-pricking blood glucose test tdy.
7 times a day: Before and after breakfast,
Before and after lunch,
Before and after dinner,
Lastly, before supper.

I pass the before breakfast range. But I failed the after breakfast range by 0.2. WHY?
I failed the before lunch range. WHY? I guess must be something do with my snack @ tea-break. But I'm allow to eat 1 slice of wholemeal bread during tea-break. Sigh
I'm at the border line for after lunch.

I follow the diet closely. I tried to eat less for each meal. STILL DIN'T WORK FOR ME.

Today, baby didnt move that much, didnt perform any kungfu fighting stunts does make me worry.

I sat on the toilet bowl, poking my tummy, asking him to kick kick me. HE DID! He "replied".
I'm glad he react to me.

Feeling pretty bad

Im feeling down. I knew no point crying. But I cant help it.

Yeap. I hit jackpot. I've got gestational diabetes. I failed the glucose test.

I'm feeling unsure if my baby going to be alright.
Thou doc said it mild. I failed by 0.1~

How can I not worried? How can I not feeling scare?
Its definitely not what I want.

For sure my hubby, my mum, my parents-in-law going to blame me on it.
I dont feel like going home. Coz I don't want all the nagging from them.

I cant hold back my tears. Crying non-stop doesnt help anything better.

I'm always looking forward to the day he come to this world....
Now, Im scare the day come....
I cant imagine he might have to undergo some extra test just becoz his mummy has G.D.

My mood will highly affect him for now, for today~