Mummy's bday~

Mum's bday celebration with family @ Ichiban Sushi~ A week earlier due to she has a dance performance @ Bt Timah.

On her actual bday, Hubby decided to bring mum to Cafe Cartel for breakfast.
The below shared by mum n me~

Hubby's

Mum's performance outfit

She said she don't want a cake. Coz she will be back home late that nite.
We still surprised her with a tiny one~

A real tiny small one~

我的心情....

Am I prepared to "pop" baby out now?

Body system down~ Consulted Dr Ong regards to what can I do?
His reply was "There's nothing you can do, not by diet or anything...."

He is preparing me (mentally) for the worst.....
What I will be facing / might be going thru during the delivery~
I told my gynae during my last routine check-up, "I dont think I will have courage to carry the 2nd child..."
His reply was, "If I can go bring you thru this pregnancy, if everything going to be safe...you can go ahead and plan for the 2nd child..."

I'm upset, scared, tired, emotional......
Going thru.....
1st trimester: Hugging toilet bowl, nauseous, throwing up...
2nd & 3rd trimester: Going thru all the tests, facing all the negative results.....

Maybe gestational diabetes due to my diet..considering is my own fault for sweet cravings.....
High chances I will get it again for next pregnancy.....
Blood counts fall, failing iron (its normal) also my diet, as I don't take red meat.....but now i do~
For this pregnancy, I started to eat more beef, take iron pills....
But just don't know why I still fail the test.....okie, Fine!
What abt platelets blood counts falls?....telling me I cant do anything abt it? Sigh. Telling me system couldnt produce (during my pregnancy) ......

If my platelets count con'd to fall below avg, Dr Ong will send me to specialist~
Before i deliver bb, I have to go thru blood transfusion....
There will be specialist stand by for me~
Just incase I cant stop bleeding profusely....
Maybe no epidural for me....or they will be extra careful when inject me with epidural~
Just incase bloodcot in my spine~
After hearing all these worst scenario, it sounds real scary to me~

I seriously think thats enough for me!

Hope & Pray~ Waiting for the day bb come to this world....
Hoping everything will be fine for me n him~
Both of us will get thru this~

I know everyone will just say to me "Be positive! Everything will be just fine"
Its really hard, you know? To stay positive after going thru all these shit~

*sigh*

Canton-I @ Ion

We took half day leave and went Shopping!

My Sis~
The Preggy Me~

The food was not that bad. Reasonable pricing too~

My nephew

Now Titus will called me "Ah Yi...."

Instead of "Yi...." or maybe sometimes he is just "Eeeeee...." At least now i know he is calling me...

But without fail, till now he saw my mole on my neck, he will say "dirty...dirty..."
He saw my hairy hand...he will also "dirty dirty..."
*fainted*

Failed Again?

Being called back for another blood test.....

2 weeks ago had a blood test (a sudden one), its becoz a few months ago (i think beginning of my 2nd trimester) I failed the iron test. So they wants to check and make sure the iron pills they gave me did helps.

End up, i still failed the test. And failed even badly then the previous time.
(THIS PROVED THAT THE IRON PILLS DINT HELP AT ALL)
Fine!

2 days ago called me to inform that beside I failed the iron blood test. My blood platelets goes lower den usual. (Normal person range 150 - 400) That time i did the test I score 210~
Now, (DONT NOE WHY) I fall under the range (100 only nia)

So they wan me to undergo another blood test.

I feel sux! Super moody. Super sian! Each blood test cost me 50bucks! U say wan to draw my blood den just draw as u like....I have to undergo the pain, the stress & the money. ARGH!

Each time telling myself, my bb coming to this world, everything gg to be just fine....

But each time there's disappointment out there for me to face it! I cant convince myself.
I cant be happy.....

Sudden Unwell

Just 30mins and I cant wait. NO! Not me! Is my stomach / gastric cant wait.

Sudden felt my gastric pain. Den nausea, den went to toilet vomitted.

Whole stomach seems like stirring. Feel like wanna LS.

Now only can observe if the pain con'd. If my bb cond to move.

Stomach pain do freak me out.

Im feeling....

Weak! strengthless! Tired! Heavy!

Can somebody help me?! I just wan to lie in bed.
This morning woke up feeling very heavy.
I'm so sleepy.....

26th bday

Had wonderful birthday this yr. With SFS colleagues, Jacmama, Family. Hmmm...and my baby inside me. *smile*