Quiet down....

Im back to my workforce. Everyday I'm being asked, "Why are you so quiet today?"
If not I heard, "I don't even know Rachel is around coz she's too quiet."

I'm always so quiet, don't I?

Yes. I'm selective. I can be very talkative, humorous n even crazy. I behaved that way in front of my family, my close friends like Jacmama, Joyce n Animalfamilyz. I just can't be what I am infront of my colleagues.

Why am I thinking so much n making myself so miserable?
Beside being selective, I'm so sensitive. I believe in my guts feeling.
Things have change after I gone back to work. I no longer feel close to who I always be with. I felt distant when I'm with them.

Problems lies with me? I'm not able to speak up or I don't want to speak up?
I also hope I can "click" with them. Ok, in fact I cant help myself from over-thinking. I heard much on how they comment on other. So lead to I don't want to speak up, I have process everything thru my big mind 1st before I talk or I act.

I do afraid ppl gossip behind my back. I can't simply ignore how ppl think abt me. That's me!

Are colleagues impt? To some of you, maybe No! For me, definitely Yes! Impt!
For a good 8hrs each day, a total of 5 days you have to spend your time with them. Even lunchtime there's someone to acc you for lunch. Colleagues help you to pass faster each day, each hr, every minutes & every single second.....

Thats provided they likes you and give u a easy time. Rite? Of coz, my colleagues din't me a hard time at all. After all, my role with time is always a listener. I listen to their joke, watching their playfulness. Its still fun to hang around with them.

Sigh. Pray I can survive another week before weekends come.

Changes...

Have the urge to change of environment. What kind of environment am I refering to? Work? Home? or some others?

Maybe ALL!

As for home, still have to wait till next year.....
AS for work, I just ended my maternity leave. Issit becoz I have to re-adapt to my jobscope + envrionment, I dont feel quite comfortable. Maybe should give myself some time to adapt to it.
As for lifestyle, now have addn member, my Baby Skyler, so after work is to go home. No time for frens or other activities eg. shopping, ktv, movies!!

So looking forward to weekends...*sigh*

妈妈不好当

It's not ez to be a mother. I'm not trying to complain here.
I know it jus past two months for being a mummy of one.
Not jus toking abt joyous stuffs. I still have lots to learn, to face sadness, anger n more worries.

I thot I'm ready to be a mum. But I'm actually not.
Physically n mentally not well prepare.
Hmmm...还有很长的路要走，还有很多等着我去经历...

好想喊累啊!!!

Money, 金钱

钱，重不重要？
it's important to have cash!
But Money 生不带来死不带去。
它会让亲情、友情、爱情起了变化。
没钱似乎万万不能

钱少的话就过贫穷及简单生活
钱多的话就过富裕及奢华生活

我希望我是。。。我能。。。

不要鸡婆

我对所有的Aunties们感到反感。
我的所做所为，无论是对是错，不须向你们交代。

我觉得做人好难：那是我不懂如何解决。
我也觉得做人好累：那是因为我很懒。

Aunties们，不要在鸡婆了！
管好你们自己的家事，别来惹我！
我不须听你们的闲言闲语和废话！！

Boredom

So boring staying @ home.

Tml is my cousin Ah Hong Jie customary wedding. Hereby wish her all the best, blissful marriage, faster have a baby~ I cant attend her wedding due to chinese tradition...avoid crashing of happy occassion~

Spent half a day sitting infront of computer, help my mum to transfer songs to her iPhone. Uploading Skyler's pix, blogging etc...

Tml Hubby n I have to take care of Skyler ourselves. Mum going to attend my cousin lunch wedding. Most prob will be bring Skyler out for a walk. Im so sick of staying @ Home.

This coming fri will be going town with my sis to get mooncake & have a gd lunch.
Maybe do a little shopping if there's enough time.

Jus wanna mention here incase some of you dint notice I've link some blogger (@ the right panel) I have other blogs: ~
- www.happiness-rainbowz.blogspot.com (Hubby & I)
- www.ourbabyskyler.com (My baby boy)

Enjoyed a day out

Enjoyed my day out with Hubby n baby.
Bought 1 jumper, 1 dress, 2shorts. Some of my clothings can't fit in le. Now have to wear L or XL whereby last time I wear size M. Sigh. Sad. Hubby bought romper for Skyler thou baby had lots of clothes. Kekez.
We managed to find Dibo plush toy for Titus as his bday present. Hubby din buy anything for himself. He seems unhappy. Lol. He feels is tiring to bring baby out. But for me, I do enjoyed n like bring Skyler with me.

Today is the 1st time we both bring him out without my mum tagging along. I'm
glad I can do it without my mum help. Manage to pacify him when he cried. *phew.

Of coz there's more to learn....to be a mummy... A gd mummy...